Sick...again

So, I unfortunetly am feeling much worse than yesterday and going to Cam's is also unfortunetly out of the question. I think I'm going to stay home and just see the New Year in while lying in bed. It's kind of stupid because I was so worried about not having anything to do for New Years and now I am choosing to stay home. Blah. Oh well, I wasn't planning on being sick today, so what can I do.

My mom is in a pissy mood today and I don't know why. I figure I'll just hide out in my room and not come out. She's taking down the Christmas tree by herself, so that could be a reason she's in a bad mood. Meh, oh well.

Well, that's all for now. Short again...Happy New Year everyone

Loves around...

EDIT: So, I decided that no matter how crappy I feel, I still want to see the New Year in with my friends.

Last night was fun...but now I'm sick again...

So, last night was fun. I got a nice present that I will be sharing with Mila, and I felt better last night, too. Then this morning I woke up with a headache again and I've been sneezing all morning. I'll hopefully be feeling better tomorrow, but who knows. Even if I do feel like crap, I'll still probably go to Cam's.

But, on another note, my brother is moving out today. It's kind of weird, but whatever. I really want his room, so hopefully in a few months I'll be moving as well...haha.

Well, it's short this time. I'm going back to bed....

Loves around...

My good mood has now dampened...

For the past 2 days I've had this pounding headache that Advil and decongestant is not making go away. So, because of my irritability, everything and everyone is pissing me off. The damn dogs howling every 2 seconds, my dad and brother trying to cheer me up, but just resulting in annoying the crap out of me, and a friend leaving a message on my phone that he thought was funny, but just pissed me off the most. He invited me to his house for a movie night and said if I didn't show up everyone will just assume I don't like them anymore. Yeah, I know he was joking, and I know he didn't know I was pissy today, but still...grr. So, I didn't go to his house because I wouldn't be in a good mood and not very social with everyone.

My brother took me to see his new place, and it's a nice place to live, but his bedroom is not that much bigger than my room in Greeley. I mean, I can survive in that room because I'll be out of there in a few months, but he's planning on living there for years with ALL of his stuff. It won't fit in there, I can tell right now.

Well, that's all for now. I hope I feel better for tomorrow night. Blah, I hate feeling like crap.

Loves around...

The Autumn days grow short...It's Christmas time again

Well, I figure since I haven't updated in awhile, I'll fill everyone in on what I have been up to. Christmas Eve was sort of fun. My brother is sort of sick so all we did was go out to eat and then go around the neighborhood and look at Christmas lights. Then, on Christmas day my parents woke me and my brother up at like 10 and we opened presents. I FINALLY got Fight Club and I also got The Butterfly Effect and the first season of Will and Grace on DVD. My brother got me the 2nd and 3rd Harry Potter books and the most recent Weezer CD. He unfortunetly couldn't find the 1st book anywhere which is odd, but hopefully I'll get 1-6 before the 7th book comes out...haha. I also got my Lost hoodie! Yay! My mom got me fun socks and one pair says "I'm Lost" on them. She figures once Season 2 comes out and we start watching it again, I'll be all set with the hoodie and socks.

Our neighbors from across the street came over for dinner, and I got to witness the dark side of Sadie. In the middle of dinner she attacked Sammi and was looking quite vicious. It was quite weird, but apparently it happens a lot. Chloe is unfortunetly on her last legs and I honestly think that this was her last Christmas with us. It's sad, but unfortunetly, it's life. After our neighbors left, we played two rounds of Trivial Pursuit and this time I was on my brother's team, so we won both times. Haha. I actually won the last round for us...bwahahaha. Then my brother, my dad and I watched Fight Club. Good times.

Tomorrow, my dad and I are bringing up the kitchen table to Greeley, so that's what I'll be doing tomorrow. Then Thursday is our White Elephant party, which Mila still hasn't gotten back to me about giving me a ride because she sucks...haha, just kidding. I sent her a facebook message 2 days ago about it, and she probably isn't a religious facebook checker like I am. I just don't want to drive my car because it's leaking some sort of fluid. I'll call her on Wednesday about it if she hasn't gotten back to me by then.

I honestly hope we're doing something for New Year's because if we don't, I'll be alone in my room that day. And that sucks. Well, if nothing goes down, I'm sure I'll find a friend who's in the same dilemma and I could do something with them. We'll see what happens.

Well, that's about all for now. I have to get up quasi-early tomorrow to bring up the table. I hope everyone had a fantabulous Christmas and I will see some of you this week and some of you when we all get back to Greeley for second semester! Blah, can you believe that we only have 2 weeks of break left? I say next year they give us 2 months off...haha. Well, that's all for now!

Loves around...

I'm loving my life right now...

So, I don't think I've been this happy in a long time. I'm just very content with life, and I consider myself quite lucky that I have a great family and fantastic friends. I am so excited for Christmas and the White Elephant party. I can't wait to give Mila her present and then make all my CD's so I can give them to everyone. After Christmas my dad and I are taking a road trip to Greeley to bring up the table. The blah part is that it might not fit in the car so we may have to rent a truck...but it's no biggie.

So, this week was pretty fun. Last Wednesday Chris and I went out planning to see Brokeback Mountain but of course it wasn't playing until December 16th. So, instead we went to the mall and I got all my shopping done, and then we went to Village Inn and had shakes and chatted. We decided that we have to see that movie together now. Who knows when we are going to see it though. On Saturday Mila and I went out because she was only home for a day since she's going to San Diego for the Bowl Game. We decided that Christmas really does bring out the worst in people. First, some bitch lady took a parking spot that we were so obviously waiting for. Then we went into the mall and overheard this horrible mother telling her daughter that she was "sad to say that she was her daughter." Isn't that horrible? What kind of person says that to their 4-year-old daughter? I would never even dream of telling any of my kids that I was said to call them my kids. So what if they are misbehaving, that comes with the package of having children.

I've also decided that I going to stop worrying about getting a boyfriend. When the time is right, he'll come along. I'm only nearly 20, so, I figure I have plenty of time. Yeah, it would be nice to have one, but I don't right now, so what's the point in dwelling over it and making myself feel sad and lonely?

Well, that's my ventage and such. I hope everyone is having a good break and I hope everyone has a good Christmas!

Loves around...

Yay! Now I'm happy!!!

I got my 2 last grades that I needed, and I got a B in Gerontology! How that happened I have no idea because I didn't do too well on the final. He must have curved a bit. I also got an A in Sign Language so I have 3 A's, 1 B and 1 C. The C I wish was a B, but oh well. I did A LOT better than I did last year, so I'm not going to complain. Hopefully next semester I'll do even better! So, now I'm happy! Yay!

I also am going to bring up the kitchen table sometime in the next week or so. My dad has to have surgery tomorrow, so he's going going to be home for awhile, so he can help me take it up there. The chairs also have cushions on them, guys, so now we can have comfortable fannies while eating dinner. Haha.

Well, I hope everyone else is happy with their grades as I am. Have a good Christmas!

Loves around...

Waiting for 2 more grades...

So, I got 3 of the 5 grades for my classes. As of right now I have 1 C and 2 A's...so that's good at least. I hoping to get an A in Sign Language and a C in Gerontology. I'll be happy with that. I might get a B in Sign Language just because I missed a few classes. But, at least I got a C in NSLD because now I don't have to take it again. Yay!

Today I got my hair re-straightened, so I have no more curl! Yay! My stylist said that shortening my bangs too much wouldn't be good, so we only cut them a little bit, so you can't even really tell, but oh well. If I was going to look stupid, then I don't want it.

Well, that's it for now. A lot less sore than I was on Sunday, and I'll probably know tomorrow or Thursday if I get to have the kitchen table. I'll let you guys know soon, especially Kara.

Have a good break everyone!

Loves around...

So, so sore...

So...I am in a tremendous amount of pain today because yesterday I totally ate it down the stairs with Chloe in hand. So, now I'm sore everywhere. A nice way to start off the break. I don't think I'm getting dressed today because it's already 3:00...if I do, I'm just going to put on sweat pants and that will be it.

On a brighter side, we put up our Christmas tree today and my dad bought santa hats for Sadie and Sammi. My dad's friend also came by unexpectantly with a kitchen table that he doesn't want, so if my brother doesn't need it, I can call Kara and see if she wants me to bring this one up. But, we'll see if my brother needs it or not.

Well, that's my update. I know, exciting. Maybe more will happen tomorrow.

Loves around...

Yeah, that's right...

There you go
You're always so right
It's all a big show
It's all about you

You think you know
What everyone needs
You always take time
To criticize me

It seems like everyday
I make mistakes
I just can't get it right
It's like I'm the one
You love to hate
But not today

So shut up, shut up, shut up
Don't wanna hear it
Get out, get out, get out
Get out of my way
Step up, step up, step up
You'll never stop me
Nothing you say today
Is gonna bring me down

There you go
You never ask why
It's all a big lie
Whatever you do

You think you're special
But I know, and I know
And I know, and we know
That you're not
You're always there to point out my mistakes
And shove them in my face

It's like I'm the one
You love to hate
But not today

So shut up, shut up, shut up
Don't wanna hear it
Get out, get out, get out
Get out of my way
Step up, step up, step up
You'll never stop me
Nothing you say today
Is gonna bring me down

Don't tell me who I should be
And don't try to tell me what's right for me
Don't tell me what I should do
I don't wanna waste my time
I'll watch you fade away

So shut up, shut up, shut up
Don't wanna hear it
Get out, get out, get out
Get out of my way
Step up, step up, step up
You'll never stop me
Nothing you say today
Is gonna bring me down

Shut up, shut up, shut up!

And I'm done, that's all I needed...

Yay! I'm done with finals! No more school until January 9th! I'm so excited to just not have to worry anymore. I'm so excited for tonight, too! I can't wait to see the movie and exchange our gifts. It'll be nice going to dinner too, even if it is just fast food. We never get to do anything fun, unless it's watching Lost in Chris's room.

Last night was fun too. I liked having our massage night and chatting until 2 in the morning. Yay for early mornings! I think I did okay on my final today, but who knows. I thought I did okay on my NSLD final...yeah, definitely didn't even pass that thing, but at least she's curving, so I'll still have a C in the class. C's make degrees...so right on. I'm also looking forward to my drive home tomorrow. I will be blasting the Christmas music all the way to Littleton. And most likely singing at the top of my lungs to it, too. Yay!

I still can't believe how fast this semester went! What with school and going through 3 damn roommates and that whole freaking drama, it's nice that it's over. I hope next semester works out okay. We have 4 guys wanting to look at the house, so we're hoping at least ONE of them works out. All we need is for him to shell out rent for 4 months and we're good.

Well, that's all for now...yay for no more school and work for a month!

Loves around...

Only 2 more left!

I only have 2 more finals left and then I'm done for the semester! Yay! I just really can't wait until I am finished with my Gerontology final and then I can just put all these classes behind me. I am also quite thrilled that I don't have to work until January. Blah, break seems so close but yet so far...haha.

Last night was an interesting night though. We all watched The Sound of Music which was good, but then half of Chris's and Kara's rooms lost power and our heat went out, so it was a bit chilly for a couple of hours. It did finally kick back up though, so at least we weren't freezing the entire night. Garrick also moved into Marshall's old room last night, so when we have people move in they can just go right upstairs and that will be that.

Well, not much else going on right now. And I'm done, that's all I needed.

Loves around...

And the stress is considerabley lessened!!!

I just got back from my sign language presentation and I got it to 10 minutes by basically making stuff up. The good part was that my teacher was watching me when I actually knew what I was signing. So, I think I did fairly decent. I also got an A on the written part of my final! Yay! So, now all I have is Phonetics on Thursday and Gerontology on Friday and then I'm done! I can't wait until our massage night tonight and to watch The Sound of Music as well. I'm excited to see it.

I am so glad to have all of my projects done and out of the way! Now all I have to worry about is next semester, and why worry about it now? It doesn't start until another month! Well, I'm still deciding whether or not I should go back to bed or not. I should probably study for Gerontology, but that can always wait until later...(haha, I'm such a bad student).

Well, that's it for now! Yay for only tests left! Good luck everyone!!!

Loves around...

Today was an awesome day!

Today was such a good day! Nothing too great happened. I woke up at like 10:30 this morning and did my sign language presentation. Then I just hung out for awhile and surfed the internet. I happened across Blackboard so I went to see if my Gerontology project was posted. It was, and I got an A! I was stressing so bad about that. Then I went to work, which went by fast, thank God, because that was my last day there until January. Yay! When I got home, Chris showed me the new Pirates preview! It looks so good, I can't until it comes out! July 7, 2006! We also gave each other our Christmas presents! That was so much fun! I felt kind of bad still because I only gave everyone a burned CD and they all spent money on me. Well, they claim that I shouldn't feel bad, so I guess I shouldn't dwell on it. But, Kara gave me fun socks (which I plan on wearing tomorrow) she also gave me a candle which smells good! She also gave me some make-up which kicks ass because I'm starting to run low on it anyway! Yay! Chris gave me survivor bandanas that we can wear on our "Survivor Nights" and he gave me an ornament that's a sundae. He tried finding a milkshake, but this was the closest thing he could find. It'll still bring all the boys to yard. It's going on my tree when I go home. Garrick gave me color changing rubber duckies which kick ass! Now when I take a bath in the dark I can still play with the duckies! Yay!

So that was today. Tomorrow we're having our massage night, which will rock! I'm so excited! I can't wait until sign language is over tomorrow because then most of the stress is gone. All I have to worry about then is Phonetics (easy easy) and Gerontology (I should probably make some time to study for that...but will I? Maybe...) After Gerontology is over the stress is gone until January! Yay! I can't wait until Friday when we go to the movie and maybe exchange Secret Savior gifts...(we might do it on Saturday, we still haven't decided...but whichever day will be good!)

Well, that's is all for now...pray my presentation equals 10 minutes tomorrow! Have a good night!

Loves around...

What's in the hatch!!!!

So, today was a much better day. Things are settled between my brother and me, and I only had one final and work today. Tomorrow, all I have to do is start and finish my sign language presentation, and work since I don't have any finals. I'm kind of stressing about sign language, but once I get it done and know what I'm going to do, I'll feel better about it.

Tonight we all watched the season finale of Lost and it ended with us guessing of course what was in the hatch! AHH! Season 2 needs to come out on DVD right now. It left so much hanging out there. At least Claire got her baby back. That was at least one thing that was resolved in that episode. But stupid Charlie had to take Heroin Mary! Grr!

Well, that's my Lost and life update for tonight. Good luck on finals everyone! See you all tomorrow!

Loves around...

Horrible day...just blah

So, today was the shittiest day ever. I want to apologize if I dampered anyone's mood tonight or if I shared information that wasn't desired to be heard. Not only did I have to go to work and was thinking about someone all day...my brother and I are in a so called "MySpace argument". We've been sending each other messages back and forth to each other explaining faults to each other. He thinks that I think everyone hates me...but I actually just think he hates me. Now I'm kind of dreading going home on Saturday solely for the reason that I will see him and he'll pretend nothing is going on. Ugh, whatever...I'm making a big deal out of nothing, I know I am. But, I'm always afraid to tell him how sometimes he can really hurt my feelings and not even really be a brother to me at all, and now I am telling him what's going on. We'll see how this turns out in the end.

Well, we got to see LOST at least. That really was the highlight of my day. I even saw John today, but my "crush" on him is starting to damper. I don't know why, but I didn't get excited to see him at all today. I'll still talk to him and everything, but I'm not going to go out of my way to make conversation and try to win him over, even when I'm not sure that he feels anything for me. I should just stop looking for a boyfriend. When it's supposed to happen, it will happen. That's what Mila keeps telling me anyway. It happens when you're not looking for it.

Well, that' s about it. Sorry for my mood...I hope I didn't bring anyone down. Good luck on finals everyone. See you tomorrow.

Loves around...

This time next week I'll be home for a month!

I am so excited for this week to be over!! I can't believe that this semester has gone by so fast! All I have to do is go to work tomorrow-Tuesday, and then I have to do this Sign Language presentation on Wednesday, but other than that, everything is just tests. I can't wait until Friday after my Gerontology final, because then everything will over! Then we go to see Brokeback Mountain and possibly exchange our Secret Savior gifts. We might do it on Saturday, we haven't decided what we're doing yet. Chris wants to exchange our other gifts maybe on our massage night so we won't be giving each other all these gifts and Dave has to just sit there and watch. I agree it wouldn't be very fair to him.

Today was an okay day. I didn't really do much. Chris and I went to King Soopers to get groceries, and then I went to Target to get my Secret Savior gift. Then Chris and I went to Wal-Mart so he could get a Christmas gift for Tara. Then I just went into my room and watched 13 Going on 30. Tonight the guys are going out, so I'm going to have the house to myself maybe even to tomorrow morning, it depends on what they do.

Tomorrow is going to be a bittersweet day because it is the anniversary of someone's death who was close to me, but also we get to watch LOST! Does it make me a bad person that a TV show is making me consider the day as bittersweet? The bad thing is someone close to me died on this day, the good thing is I get to watch a TV show that I love? Blah, maybe I shouldn't look into it that much.

Well, that's pretty much the news for now. Work tomorrow...blah. I hope it goes by fast. Good luck on finals this week!

Loves around...

No more classes, only finals...

Yeah, so I don't have anymore classes for the rest of the semester. Now all I have to worry about is finals. Wahoo. Yeah, so Emily's package with the dildo came today. At least, that's what we think it is. I find that so funny.

I'm kind of worried about Mila. She posted a blog on MySpace about how she's a failure. I hate it when she thinks that way. It makes me feel bad, and I feel like I can't do anything as her best friend to make her feel better. I tried calling her and she didn't pick up and she hasn't called me back. So we'll see what happens.

Well, that's probably it for now. More later...

Loves around...

Once upon a December...

The beginning of December always bring back unhappy memories for me. I'm not looking forward to Sunday, mainly because it is going to be 6 years to the day since someone who I held very dear to my heart died. Maybe work that day will take my mind off of it, but I highly doubt it. No matter what I do on December 4th, that person never leaves my mind for the entire day, and it makes my day feel like crap. But, life goes on, and while I've been trying to get over it, since it's been 6 years, it's still very very hard.

So, I apologize ahead of time if my mood is slightly dampened for the next couple of days, especially on Sunday. This is why, and rather than tell people in person why I am so sad, I find this way easier since I don't risk suddenly bursting out into tears.

But I am still looking forward to Lost tonight, and I'll try hard not be so depressed.

Have a good day...

Loves around...