Update on life...it's been awhile.

It's been awhile since I last posted. Nothing much has been going on. We finally are free from Woody Investments and Chris and I are living in an apartment with Holly. School is going okay for the most part. I'm almost done and I'm really excited about going on to grad school.

Today hasn't been so good. I went home for my brother's birthday and found out my grandma officially has cancer. It's in her stomach and they think it spread to her lung (she definitely has cancer in her lung, but they are unsure if it's related to the stomach cancer or not). It also spread to 2 lymph nodes. They are starting her on chemo in 2 weeks and hopefully that will at least prolong her life 5-6 years. She's already 80 so 5-6 years would be great for her and if she did last that long she would have lived a good life anyway.

It's just not really sinking in yet and I'm sure I'll break down over something small this week, so be prepared.

Anyway, that's about it for now. Kind of a sucky update, but hopefully as time goes on things will get better.

End of year stress...woot

Why do teachers have to make everything due on the same day? I literally have 3 different things due tomorrow and they are all in the same class...that's just plain cruel. I'm feeling a little more relieved though because I got a lot of stuff done and most of it is due tomorrow. The most stressful thing now is finishing up a book that I have barely started and getting a reading log going for it. I also have my lab practical and a lesson plan due next week, and some stuff for another class that will be due the following day. Hopefully by finals week everything should be okay.

Today has sort of been a crappy day though. Everyone seems sad (myself included). I'm sad because I'm sort of coming to the realization that even though this house sucks, once we all move out we are all pretty much separating. After 2 years of living together and only having a few weeks left makes me sad. I know that next year I'll have a semester each with Chris and Garrick, but then we all graduate. You guys all have to promise to keep in touch once we're done with school. Hopefully our lives won't be too busy. Anyway, I hope everyone is coping well with all this stress that's going on and that everyone gets happier.

Loves around...

Whatever...

I am in the worst mood ever. I'm just really sick of everything. I'm sick of life not going how I want it, I'm sick of school, I'm sick of TK, and I'm getting sick of feeling like I'm not allowed to be in a crappy mood and just be miserable without people having to call me on it. Along with this crappy weather for April, I didn't get the job I wanted and of course they call and tell me. I would have rather they just didn't call and let the people who didn't get it find out by lack of phone call instead of hearing the monotone voice saying "we appreciate you coming in and talking to us, but unfortunately we don't have a position available to you." (that would be translated to "you would suck at this job"). I also got the shocked "what!?'s" from my parents because they were so certain that I would get it...yeah, another downer. Then I get a lecture from a friend that I shouldn't work at the dining hall anymore and that there are so many opportunities out there for me and that I should just quit TK and find another job. Yeah, easier said than done. Right now I think I just want to make my life as easy as possible and just go back to the job that I already have instead of getting a dozen more disappointing phone calls telling me that there are no positions available to me.

Whatever...things will look tomorrow I suppose.

But I'm le tired...

For some reason or another I've just been completely wiped out these past couple of days. All I want to do is lie in bed and watch a movie...or sleep. Tomorrow I have my job interview with Academic Support and Advising. I really hope I get it because I really want to quit TK at the end of the year. Hopefully things will work out with that.

Not much else going on. I'm still trying to figure out a nice way to tell Damien that I really don't want to hang out that much anymore. I just think it's a bad sign when you make plans to hang out with someone and then you dread it. I just think I'm trying to force something that's not there and it makes it bad for both of us.

I'm excited to go home this weekend for Easter. I also get to get my new driver's license...yay! But other than that, not much else has been going on. I haven't blogged in awhile so I don't know if any of you will even read this...haha

Devil Dog

Today kind of sucked since Sammi found her way out of the yard again and since there was snow on the ground, running after her was out of the question. So, I lost sight of her down the greenbelt behind my house and she was gone for 3 hours, my brother had to come over and we looked for her for a good long while. After the first 2 hours, my mom started crying because since she wasn't coming back, and we couldn't find her and it's so cold out, she thought she would eventually freeze to death. My dad and I decided to have one last look before giving it up, so I went back down the greenbelt and something told me to keep going (my dad all the while wishing John Locke would pop out from the trees and track her...haha). At first I thought I found her lying by a tree, but of course it was just a branch covered in snow. I went to the end of the greenbelt (which the end of it is Dry Creek Road) and miracously saw her in the neighborhood across the street (yes, she crossed Dry Creek in the afternoon on a Saturday and lives to tell the tale). I yell to my dad that I see her and he runs after her. I call my brother and tell him that we spotted her and he got his car and met us over there. She crossed Dry Creek AGAIN (and lives to tell the tale) and books up the greenbelt. I get in the car with my brother while my dad continues on foot. My brother and I finally find my dad with Sammi. The nightmare is now over...haha.

So, yeah, that was my WHOLE day...being outside trying to find my stupid dog. I am glad we found her, but she definitely did ruin everyone's day. My dad fell in a hole in the process (that's right, a hole...the snow was up to his chest, he says) while trying to get to her and he has gout, so he probably was in a lot of pain at the end of our trek.

Well, I hope everyone had a better day than me. I'm sure you're all up in Greeley by now...I'll be back up Monday afternoon...I can't wait to see you all!

Loves around...

There's a lot of snow outside....

Oh snow...I forget how much I hate it and yet love it. I'm supposed to be at work at 4:30 today....but the store is closed, so no one is getting in today. So I have 3 days off in a row which is kind of good, but kind of sucky. Oh well.

My dad and I shoveled a path for our highlander to get out and we were able to drive around the block, so we can at least get out of the neighborhood if we absolutely needed to. Hopefully the store will be open at least by tomorrow so I know that I can go to work on Saturday. As much as work isn't fun, I need money, and the stupid snow is preventing me from making any.

Well, that's about all for now. I hope everyone has a safe Christmas and New Year and be careful in the snow!

Loves around...

Stress brings out the worst in me...

Yeah, I'm sorry ahead of time because I'm sure I won't be the happiest person to be around. I'm stressed about finals and I'm also stressed about my money because I just looked at my account and I barely have enough for rent let alone Christmas presents for my family. Ugh, I so wish I didn't let Lauren borrow that money. It pisses me off that I was kind of taken advantage of and I really could use that money. It sucks that I might actually have to borrow money from my parents in order to buy them presents. Hopefully my paycheck will be relatively decent and I won't have to worry about it. I wish Christmas wasn't a week after I go back to work for Bed, Bath and Beyond. Blah. I'm sure it will all work out.

I also don't have any incentive to study. All I really want to do is lay around and watch movies all day, but unfortunately I can't. Anyway, sorry if I bring anyone down this week...finals suck

Well, other than that I hope everyone has a decent week and a good Christmas break.

Loves around...